Dying Wick

I hope you remember
to not ever forget;
I'm the last-lit candle
at the end of the set.
I'm another postcard
on the bottom of the pile;
I'll travel the world
to make you smile.

If you want to come home,
however long you've been gone,
we will light your way back,
smoldering one by one.
Just follow the faces
of your family and friends;
those you've missed in the front,
those like me at the end.

The music you make
and the pictures you paint
leave stains on our hearts;
though already they fade,
we can still hear your voice
call "I love you"s behind
to no one specific.
Yet we all reply:

"We love you forever!"
I hope you've realized
everyone of our hearts
broke saying goodbye.

I hope you remember
to not ever forget;
I'll whisper to your ghost
like a broken cassette:
I will love you forever
even though we've just met.
I'll be the last candle
at the end of the set.

Undercurrents

One sea of rivers
All go different directions
Forever unchanged.

One ocean of streams
Peripherally, they meet
Then never the same.

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What does it matter - 'worth it'?

Some things - not our decision - in which case - all or nothing.

Make sense - fragments - never connect - with zero divisions - one way - next.

I'm waiting for the next stop.
I hope I haven't missed it.
~M

Daydreaming in Algebra

Stealing stars out of electrical sockets;
they sting, so I slip them into my pocket.
I'll snack on them later, when it turns dark:
tongues tend to be tamer when dancing with sparks.

And I'll just swallow and smile
I'll just swallow and smile
Just swallow and smile
Swallow and smile
and smile.

Smile,
~M

I know you.

I know you.
I know how you think. How you feel.

I know you.
You think you're not good enough.
You hear these words, you hear them all the time.
Wow, you're so smart. So pretty. So talented.
In one ear, out the other.
Do they really mean it?
You will never know.
You wonder to sleep.

I know you.
You don't sleep.
You miss dreaming.
You dream too much during the day.
Don't you know how daydreams hurt?
Because your heart isn't in them so naturally, like a dream.
You put it in consciously, and it pulls and tugs.
Dreaming during the day is wanting. Want want want.
I know.

I know you.
I know how you sing when you think no one is around.
I know how it feels--loud, clear, invincible.
But when people are listening, it's never right.

I know how you put emotion into your music.
You want beauty to break your heart.
You've been broken by a song, a lyric, a voice, a word, before.
You want that.
And you break and break again.
And then you wonder how you've gotten so broken inside.

I know you.
You want to live. You want to feel alive.
You don't know, but I do.
You've tasted it. But you hunger, like so many.
I know it.

I know you.

I love you. And I hope you find what you're looking for.

Bit of a Relapse

You remember those nights we'd spend on the ArtChat until four in the morning?
You remember having sleepovers and genderbending characters from our favorite shows and games?
You remember the MSN chats with the mega crossovers at which we'd laugh so hard?
The zombies of us we doodled?
Your head wings that let you fly on an invisible chair?

I remember all of this.

I finished Soul Eater today. Er, yesterday. The 18th. It was fantastic.
I love character songs.
Kid's voice actor has such a gorgeous voice. <3
Black Star's voice actor(actress, actually) make Black Star out to be an incredible singer. The idea of even vocal power surging from the little powerful Star is...well, it's pure awesome.
Tsubaki has a rich voice. C: Much appreciated.

Soul is hot.
THERE. I said it.
I think a lot has to do with his SULTRY VOICE. >u>
Kid also has muy SULTRY VOICE.
I tend to like the characters with the SULTRY VOICES.
Tsubaki's voice is almost sultry, but she's too YAY to be omghot.
And I'm not so into girls .-.
Romeo had a pretty sultry voice in the recordings in English last year.

MakaxSoul is also good.

Here is Black Star and Tsubaki's song, "My Star" sketch.


I also drew a Liz+Kid+Patty pic, but it's too late to scan. Scanner is noisy and too close to parents' bedroom.

A little scoop of ice cream...

I made these. Long before Tuesday's shopping adventure where we came across a shirt with rainbow cartoon bears. I had, like, a reference for the head, two for the body, and three for the tail. @_@

Tuesday was phenomenal. I don't remember having so much fun. <3
I've missed our little trio. The whole gang is fantastic, but there's nothing quite like a day of just us. C:

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I just watched one of the most intense Soul Eater episodes yet, as the series comes to it's climax and close, and what do you know, halfway through, Megavideo screws up and the sounds is late. There was a lot of screaming in that episode too. It blew my mind and messed with my eyes, trying to connect the subs the the sound to the effects to the battle to the action to the characters constantly flying across the screen.
So Marie's eyepatch has to do with the outlet of her "Redemption" soul wavelength...impressive. One of the most destructive weapons, imbued with one of the greatest healing powers.
I love this show. <3

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I've been overeating. It makes me feel horrible, but I keep feeling like I need to eat. x_X
I don't know what's going on with me.

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I'm not done with my summer reading. I don't know how I can finish the Mark Twain in time. ;_;

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I was shocked too. By how eager "friends" were to attack other "friends". But I haven't been around them much. My closer friends aren't like that. It made me wonder how many others in the world are like that. And how many are like you, scarred to thinking that everyone is the same, and there is no kindness anymore.

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It's becoming harder to talk to people directly. I'm so used to shutting up inside over the summer. I've talked more than ever, yet have rarely left the house. It's been very unrewarding.
But I'm not feeling quite so depressed as it might sound. Which is also bordering disappointing.
It makes me thing....so it's true. That the less I live, the less I feel.

I don't know what to think of that. I usually go by gut-feeling, but as I said, I'm not feeling much of anything.




I want another snack. -_-

"Do Not Open"

That's almost like an invitation, isn't it?


I had initially wanted to crop it under the area where the dude'd have eyes, but I like his hair, so here I'm keeping it.
Might change my mind later.
I also initially had the box say MYTOYBOX
because that is what I was listening to when I got this idea
but I got distracted
and changed my music in the middle of it
and lost the mood
and accidentally just drew whatever.
It's not very MYTOYBOX-y now.

Now it is just Brain Spew.
Enjoy.


Still dreaming,
~M